The Probability Experiment.

Ash 4 years and 1 month ago

Possibilities vs. Probabilities - What if we had the ability to really design our life? What would yours be based on?

Possibilities - Things that could happen. No real control. It might happen it might not. 

Probabilities - Won't. Can't. Should. Will. - A belief system.

The first thing that occurred to me, we already have a version of the probabilities belief system. Things that can't, won't, should and will happen in our lives. I wonder just how many things we miss out on because we believe it can't or won't happen.

Looking at my life, it's interesting how many things wound up in the Won't and Can't columns. What if we just move a couple over into the Will column and meditate on it for 30 days? What would happen? 

I will let you know.

Ash 4 years and 1 month ago

Day two of our probability experiment. I created a chart yesterday to display a visual rendering of my beliefs about myself and my life. It was enlightening.

The chart has 4 columns that represent things I believe about myself that Won't, Can't, Should or Will happen in my life. (see image below)

I thought about the areas of my life that mattered most to me and placed each item into the column that best ranked it's probability of happening based on what I honestly believed about it.

For instance, My business Should be a success. Or, I Won't lose everything and be homeless.

After looking at the chart, it's interesting how many things wound up in the Won't and Can't columns. I thought, what if I just move a couple into the Will column and then meditate on it for 30 days... what would happen?

I created a copy of the chart, moving many of the Won't beliefs into the Should and Will columns. I then moved a few of the negative beliefs from Will to the Won't column.

I can't say I was surprised when I saw the first chart. These items were a honest representation of what I believed about myself and where I was going.

This morning's meditation took on a new direction. I woke up wrecked and in a lot of pain. The last thing I wanted to do was meditate on this stuff. Slowly, I made my way around the house, opening windows and trying to talk my brain into this new way of thinking. I started mouthing how grateful I was for the items in the "Will" column. It felt fake and my ego wasn't having it. But I continued as I got coffee and returned to my bedroom.

Then all of the sudden I became aware of something. That 'Will' column became truth to me and I couldn't help myself as I returned real gratitude for this new gift. I felt a real separation between my logical brain and whatever I was doing at that moment. I can only describe it as a connection to the flow of something. I was being introduced to the best version of me. I could feel joy overwhelm me as the words 'thank you' poured out. 

Day two.

Ash 4 years and 1 month ago

Day three and my logical brain woke me at 4am like a six year old on Christmas morning. You know, the one with all the ego yesterday? lol 

I awoke feeling pretty wrecked again. My pain level was a solid six in my joints but something was very different today. It was much easier to get to that place of gratitude. I realized that of the items on my new beliefs chart, nine could be accomplished in a moment and two were ongoing, all vital to my existence.

Then out of nowhere, a thought hit me like a nine pound hammer. What would it mean if the answer to those nine items was YES? Like in... it's done. Completed. I got you. Presto! Tadaaaaaa! ;-)

With these items right in my life, what would be important to me then?

The answer floored me. I felt the weight of the world lift from my shoulders. I had this new freedom to focus on the things that really matter. Gratitude and thankfulness poured out.

I became aware of the two most important areas of my life. In the spirit of transparency, the two items remaining were: continue to grow as a person and continue to fulfill my life's purpose.

What if everything that you are, that you were and will be is available to you right now? Think about that for a moment.

Wouldn't you choose to be the best version of you? 

Day three.

Ash 4 years and 1 month ago

Day four and I have to say there was absolutely no magic waking me this morning. Truth be told, yesterday afternoon was extremely challenging and I really struggled to get through it. This quarantine has really impacted my market and I feel so helpless as many of my dear customers suffer punishing losses. These are hard working small business owners that are watching their life's work crumble right in front of them. 

I know that feeling well.

Yesterday's morning session had me feeling connected, energized and hopeful. By noon, I couldn't think of one thing to feel positive about. The day had gone to shit. 

I know this feeling well and I loath it. It's that realization you might be living Groundhog Day. I have customers that need help, the Internet is going up and down, T-mobile is having outages, no work can get done, I live in the middle of nowhere, no one can hang out, you can't go to Starbucks for coffee and a hotspot... you get the picture. This has been going on for months and yesterday it took my legs out from under me.

I gave up. I turned off my phone and devices and went to bed. I awoke this morning feeling super lost. 

I had a few errands to run and got in the car, opened the windows and turned up the music. The morning breeze was fantastic and gave me a little time to adjust my attitude.

This afternoon's outages allowed me a break to do a few things around the house and then enjoy a two hour drum session. Then it hit me....

I felt so lost because I had failed to find my purpose for the day.

As I discovered yesterday, PURPOSE is one of the two most important beliefs in my Will column. Not only life's purpose but I must find a daily purpose. Without it, I can't grow as a person.

Day four.

Ash 4 years ago

So, about 30 days ago I asked the question... what would happen if I rearranged what I believed about myself and then meditated on it for 30 days?

It's been interesting. 

Around day five, I had a significant item from my Will column start to manifest. Life became super busy accommodating the new changes and truth be told, I was a little floored by the events. 

It's been said, be careful what you wish for... you might just get it. lol

I learned quickly that it's important to be ready to receive the changes that come with the realignment of your beliefs. 

Sometimes, real change requires a catalyst and for me, that wick was lit about the time I created the belief chart. 

30 days later, I'm still processing much of what I've learned about myself.

Here's a few of the highlights:

Have a daily purpose. - I am a purpose driven person and not having a daily purpose can derail me emotionally. 

Know when you are low - This was a big one for me. Sleep & energy deprivation can quietly drain you physically, mentally and consciously. Being an introvert and a purpose driven person, I need to become more sensitive to the times I am low and where possible, reschedule critical interactions until I can renew those energies. 

Reduce the amount of hope required - Hope is essential to life and for the most part, must come by way of faith in something you believe to be greater than yourself. This keeps us dependent on people, things or organizations that may not have our best interest at heart, leaving us vulnerable. Interestingly enough, the amount of hope needed seems to be in direct balance with our fear center. (which we can control)

Once we realize that fear is a self-made reaction to a stimulant that may or may not be reality, we can make adjustments to directly deal with the trigger and control our reliance on the amount of hope needed to survive it.

Be ready for change - Rearranging my belief chart and meditating on the changes allowed me to learn some new things about myself. It created hope and quieted my fear center. Every religion on the planet understands that when you manage fear and hope, you can instigate change in human behavior.

The possibility of miracles happening because we believe might be a stretch... but isn't it possible that re-aligning our beliefs to support an intended outcome could allow changes that might not have been possible with an opposing belief system?

Bottom line: get your life ready to support the changes you seek. You might have been standing in your own way. 

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